Its been awhile since I last post something …
Im so down right now … I dont know what to do … Im lost in myself … I dont have a past to remember my childhood is a total blur … It hurts my head thinking about it … I only have memories of bitterness and sorrow, no matter how much I make myself happy it still haunts me … I found total happiness in her eventhough nothing much happens between her and me … Isnt it funny its like Im just dreaming … I need to find myself, need to know who I am from my own prespective not from others … Its like im always hiding something, something that will totally change what others would think about me … How I wish that she would just understand me or just care of me just a little, little enough to let me feel that I am me … But I guess its hard enough for her than for me … I wish life would rollback and let me change how its was from the past …