Glimpse Of My Life; Tiring Yet Fulfilling

Have you ever say to yourself “I can’t do it, Im tired”? Well I did so many times in my work, my life and my family.

First of all I’m a loner, since I was a child socializing isn’t my forte. I usually at home reading books, watching tv or just on my bed thinking, thinking of things that came and things that won’t come in the near future. I’m satisfied with just me, myself and I, never did asked anyone for company. Imagination is my playground and sanctuary. As long noone bothers me then I’ll go on what I’m doing.

Life was simple back then but it lacks something. Something that I denied myself for a long time. And thats people in my life. When I thought I need friends, the first to I did was to be bad, to rebel against anyone. To be accepted so easily and be recognized instantly, that’s my reason. But along the way I sat down and thought of the things I’ve done and felt pity and sorrow. It took me years to changed from what I see is my second personality, my second self, the one who is not me but me. I tried going back to what I was way way back but within that process I develop what I can say is my third personality, the combination of the homeboy me and the bad boy me. And its what I am now. If someone is good to me then I’ll be good to them, if someone did something bad to me or to someone I know then heaven and hell won’t be his/her sanctuary.

I didn’t regret from what my present life ended up, Im happy that I have a family of my own. Never did regret what happened, not even once. Even though my wife doesn’t trust me completely, atleast she is at my side and I’m to her. There are so many reasons that our relationship won’t work but we both work it out. Though some issues can’t be resolve in an instant, we usually put it aside so that we won’t have to argue with it all the time. When the time comes every issue shall be gone, and we will be there to the end.

My work life isn’t that simple also, I’m currently employed to the best private company, I say this because there is no company that cares so much for their employee. Everything is in balance, we consider our selves as family.

Even though the salary is good, I’m still on a freelance mode. I take on different projects just to have extra income. I work 24hrs from what I see.