Simple Yet Complicated

Im now married for 1year and 10 days to Ice. Its been that long but was that fast, being married because girlfriend was pregnant wasn’t my ideal marriage but it did happened so instead of me doing the wrong choices, I did the right thing and thats keep the baby and ask her for marriage. The marriage was yet again a non-ideal marriage for both of us but it went thru. Time and differences made a gap on our married life which I can’t blame my wife for it. Blaming things on others just wont get back what had happened. Instead of sulking and thinking of the past I anticipated. But people have different opinions and reactions to life, maybe mine is just thinking simple to complicated problems yet sometimes simple problems is solved thru complicated solutions. How do I manage with that? I just think of what will happen with the ifs and whats, when Im finish thinking (which I rarely do hehehe) I think of the people around me especially my baby and my wife, whats best for them now and for tomorrow. I, with self evaluation, have a yin and yang, I mean Im immature yet mature, hardworking yet bum etc., but Im straight :p. Im the best of two worlds of the mind.

How did I manage to think and not to think is a bother to me as well.. I just go on with the flow of life..